Category Archives: Spiritual Awakening


frontierAre you free or are you a hostage? When I say free, I mean truly FREE. I openly admit that I’m not fully free. I experience periods of absolute freedom. And when I do!!! Well, it keeps me going. It helps me to recognise those longer spells of time when I’m not free. Times when I’m held hostage by fear and by my ego. I haven’t quite worked out whether I accomplish freedom all by myself or whether Source gifts me these moments to give me something to empirically experience so that I know beyond a shadow of doubt when I’m NOT free.

I know that my natural state is one of unbounded freedom. I remember, deep within my bones, what this freedom feels like. I attain it, when I least expect it, during meditation or during my dream time. And I experience it when the boundary of skin is experienced for what it is, an illusion where I end and the ‘outside’ world begins. I feel it at frontiers. Frontiers of my mind, frontiers at the edge of fear and most of all, frontiers at the edge of my thinking mind.

The next frontier isn’t deep space, or at least not in the way most people think of deep space. The next frontier beckons us all. In a very real way, it’s a fake frontier. It’s a 3D illusion. It’s what we’ve been programmed to believe and it’s reinforced daily by myriad outside forces. And we enforce it too. But the thing is, every last one of us knows that we are captives by choice. It’s just that we’ve forgotten.

But now, we are entering an epoch of great remembering because it’s time for the next great leap. There is now an urgency, a spiritual imperative, to leap into the next stage of our evolution CONSCIOUSLY. In a sense, we are there already. Our ‘future’ selves have already accomplished this leap. But it feels like, from where I am, and please bear with me because this is insanely difficult to articulate, this leap cannot trickle back to empower us in this now moment, because it hasn’t been anchored and claimed by us right here in this present moment.

I’m writing this as a trigger point, to remind myself and anyone who cares to listen. Because words are spells and today is a day when the veil is easier to penetrate, not just between life and what we take as death, but between the frontier we have chosen to believe can’t be crossed. But it can be crossed. Not by trying to cross it, not by any sort of endeavour, but by dismissing the idea, the concept of a frontier.

We disempower and dissolve the idea of our prison walls, or frontiers, by moving deeply into our heart space, by consolidating our energy and focusing it on the precise coordinates of this NOW moment, by opening to the flow of life, by stepping outside of our thinking mind and observing our experience from the Still Point and by dropping resistance and expectation of every kind.

And we drop the idea that this is in any way a test. It is not a test. It is something we have already completed. Trust yourself and accept yourself with unconditional love. And breathe. Breathe yourself into this reality that is yours already. It’s as simple and intuitive as your next breath. No one decides to take that next breath, we just breathe, naturally and with ease.



Whenever everything seems to be stacked against you and going wrong in your life – STOP! Because the EXACT OPPOSITE is happening. Life is trying to get your attention. The Universe is trying to draw your attention towards that which needs healing. Source is shining a big painful spotlight on an aspect of your life that is out of balance.

Because we are stubborn and lazy when it comes to learning how to live in balance, and because we tend to pull away from inner growth, Source uses whatever it can within our lives to make it impossible for us to sweep things under the carpet.

If your life isn’t going so well, it’s highly probable that you have ignored a chain of hints and pointers. When this happens, as it does with most of us, the messages get more and more urgent until we notice and DO something about it.

What it usually means is that we are resisting CHANGE. When we allow change, when we open to the movement that seeks to flow through us, we notice an alleviation of negativity. And then, if we are paying attention, we see with great clarity. We see, not a random catalogue of suffering and disasters, but an overarching meaning that connects the negative elements of our lives into a symbolic rescue package.

All at once, it is blindingly obvious what we need to do and why. We don’t use our thinking mind to gain clarity, we tune into our heart and intuition. So whenever we reach a point when everything appears to have gone wrong, we can take heart. It is at this precise point, this pivotal moment, that we are perfectly aligned with a gateway into our own deep and radical healing.

It is up to us whether we choose to take this opportunity, but the invitation forever remains. Do we move into healing or do we choose to suffer some more?


Every time you fail, you don’t really fail at all. It’s impossible to fail because a failure is nothing more than an intensive learning opportunity.

The more you fail, the more you learn and grow. Never regret anything. Even terrible life events bring insight and wisdom. Even if you repeat the same mistake over and over, it isn’t a waste. It just means you didn’t learn all you needed to the first or second time round.

Over a lifetime, we have the capacity to learn so much. Life is incredibly dynamic and rich when we realise the wisdom waiting to be realised within every encounter, experience and moment.


We Are All Warriors

warrior1You are the hero of your own life. You are incredibly courageous to keep showing up for yourself day after day. Never compare yourself to other people. We are all courageous in different ways.

My ability to be strong is not the same as yours. Things that terrify me won’t bother you and vice versa. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. Compare yourself to your last best effort. We are all warriors. Just to be here, incarnated in physicality, is such a heroic undertaking.

To be separated from Source, from infinite love, peace and bliss, is like jumping off a cliff into the darkness below. It takes mountains of faith and courage. But you did that, I did too. It’s one of the many reasons I feel such tenderness for everyone.

We sacrificed ourselves, for a time, to leave our home of love and light and descend into this world of suffering and alienation. When it’s all over, when we transition, this human life will seem as brief as a blink of an eye.

You can feel the echo of that relief from the future now, in your present. It is there to comfort you, that gasp of cosmic comprehension. You can feel it if you try. I see and feel it sometimes. Time folds in on itself and I’m there. I’m back home and everything is crystal clear. When life overwhelms me, I try to reconnect to that knowing.


Every Day…

every-dayEvery day I learn something new – about myself and the world, about society and the natural world. Every day I redefine who I am. I learn about my ego and how it tricks me, how it leads me away from who I am. And I learn about the steadfast nature of love and truth.

Each new revelation creates a new world that is lived for a day. And then I wake up and start all over again, ready and receptive to what life has to reveal to me. Every day a layer of illusion crumbles into dust.

Every day my ego tells me I know a little more and I laugh at my ego, because I remember the day before. And I know that I am not wise, I do not know all there is know, not a fraction. If I learn anything it is that learning is more about emptying out data and facts once they have served their purpose.

I learn to be as empty as possible, unattached to pearls of wisdom and clever ideas. I learn that it is the emptiness, the ability to hold space, that is my best teacher. I don’t even wonder anymore. Because wondering is speculation – a game for the mind. I use my mind as a servant. I am my heart which is love and truth. I forget this, often. But I forgive myself anyway. Again and again.

That Thing

That thing, the one hidden in the shady recesses of your mind. That thing that keeps you awake at night. That thing that subtly takes the edge off life. That thing that stops you being whole and happy until you’ve eradicated it, defeated it, transformed it, you know the “thing” I mean.

It’s the thing that makes you feel that you’re not quite good enough. And you’ve been waging war on that one thing that stops you being happy for most of your life. The thing that blocks you may be the same thing that you’ve been battling all your life, or your thing may change.

You may notice that once you overcome whatever it is that stops you being fully you, that another thing rises up to take its place and then you have to start all-over-again.

Or you could try something completely different. Instead of trying to iron out all your creases, you could try – for just one day – accepting and loving yourself with that big ugly shameful thing.

You could, just as a little experiment, try to love that thing that you’ve spent all your time hating and just see what happens. Or if you can’t summon up a little love for that thing that’s stopping you being gloriously perfect, you could try to accept that it’s part of you. And if you can’t quite do that either, you could imagine that the person you most love is afflicted by “your personal thing” and notice whether that makes you love them less.

Don’t waste your life trying to get rid of “that thing”, because you know what, there will always be something. Always. You are never ever going to get all your ducks in a row, well not for long anyway. The irony is, once you stop trying to be so damn perfect, you realise that your thing is trying to show you something. It’s trying to teach you the gift of unconditional love. And once you get it, all your annoying little flaws won’t seem to matter that much anyway.

The Game of Life

the game of life

It is the emptiness that fills me, 
The void at the heart of Life
Where the whistling winds of eternity roar.
It is only in the space between thought, desire and expectation,
It is only in the pause between one attachment and the next
Where the kiss of true belonging can be recognised and felt.
Am I afraid to fall headlong, heart surrendered into the great expanse of Nothing?
I know that I am not.
I know that I have already plunged and continue to plunge into myself,
And it is the echo of the free-fall into Heavenly Grace
That I would recreate in moments of faulty comprehension.

The precipice is a myth, the greatest myth ever told,
But by belief and repetition it gains a half-life, a shadow identity,
But it is not real, it is not real, it is not real.
When the promise of Heaven threatens to rip open my skin,
Scatter my bones and burn away the last vestiges of who I think I am
I lean away from the ecstatic abyss into a game I have created.
Why? Why not?
The game is not done with, it still plays out.
When I am ready for the most beautiful pain,
The sweetest agony,
When you are ready too,
We will plunge together into Divine Union
And then all will cease to exist,
Every thought will be forgotten,
Every emotion erased
And only the Bliss of Being will remain,
Undifferentiated, still, silent.
Creation will wind down and fold into the still silent point.

But for now we play at forgetting and remembering,
That is the joy of the Game of Life.
So, if you, like me, are a seeker,
Understand why you seek,
Know what you seek.
Enjoy the gift you have given yourself,
Treat it with playful reverence,
It has yet to begin, it is eternal and it is over.
It is all these things,
But above all remember that you are never lost,
I am here remembering you, you are here as a testament to me.
You are home; you are the destination and the journey.
You are Life living Itself.

© Sue Claughton, 2016

What are you waiting for?

We’ve got to resist sleepwalking through our lives at all costs. That is one of the fundamental challenges I believe we face. It’s easy to slip into predictability and focus on the little ups and downs that characterise human life.

We all take ourselves too seriously from time to time. We react to the little dramas in our lives as though they are major catastrophes. But when we open our eyes and hearts to the life that surrounds us, it’s never long before we see genuine suffering and hardship.

And that’s a big part of why we are here. We are here to cultivate and express compassion and kindness. It really doesn’t take much to imbue our lives with depth and to lift others out of the darkness. And in doing so, we transform ourselves from the inside out too.

We are always being told that we are One and that we live in a deeply interconnected world. But what does that actually mean? How can we make sense of it empirically?

As far as I’m concerned, there is only one way to explore and experience this as our personal reality. And that’s through our hearts and the power of love. Not some head nodding, dreamy eyed pseudo spiritual superficial agreeing and pontificating. It means helping, serving, living our lives as channels for God’s love to manifest in the here and now.

So many people are waiting – waiting for ascension, waiting for spiritual enlightenment, waiting for the sky to split open and for God and all the angels to swoop down and save the day or waiting for aliens to show themselves and somehow change everything.

But, this is all so PASSIVE, lazy and cowardly. And it’s never going to happen. We are here to do it for ourselves. We can ask for strength, guidance and wisdom, but ultimately if we want to create a better world, we’ve got to do it for ourselves, together and for each other. We’ve got to do it for love, nothing else. We’ve got to live our lives for love.

The Qualities of Love

Silence and stillness are two qualities of Love. To heal ourselves, we need both. Sometimes it can seem as though silence and stillness are nowhere to be found in our hectic lives and busy world, but don’t be fooled. Silence embraces every sound and stillness lies at the core of everything.

We can make spaces within our life to make it easier for the qualities of silence and stillness to manifest for us. And once we’ve authentically noticed silence and stillness, even if only for a moment, it heightens our awareness so that we begin to perceive these two sacred qualities everywhere.

We notice stillness in a crowded street and we notice silence in the spaces around, underneath and at the heart of the cacophony of sounds we hear every day. But most of all, we become aware that we carry these very qualities within our being, in the spaciousness that we are.

Whenever we feel unbalanced, unhappy, unwell or just a little off kilter, it is because we’ve lost touch with our essence which is silence, stillness, space and ultimately, Love. All these expressions are manifestations of Love. Without silence, stillness and space, nothing is possible.