Psychological Comfort Versus Spiritual Strength

Walking a spiritual path is the most challenging undertaking we can embark upon. It’s a journey of self discovery into the new. No two paths are the same, even when they share many commonalities. So there’s no roadmap to follow. Those who authentically and courageously follow a path of heart undertake to become spiritual cartographers into a vast uncharted landscape of the soul.

There are many stumbling blocks along the way. And I believe one of the big ones is learning to discern the difference between concepts and belief systems that primarily arise out of ego thinking and those that arise from within the wisest and most sacred aspect of ourselves.

They each carry trademarks that become easier to spot as we progress deeper into the mysteries of existence. Beliefs, ideologies and concepts that are ego constructed can seem deeply alluring. They are the ones that offer us superficial psychological comfort. At root, their message frees us from responsibility to ourselves and each other. They are dangerous because like all great deception stories, they are woven with aspects of truth to make them appear more plausible. But the overriding vibration they embody is one of ease and the cessation of suffering. And they contradict themselves deeply and fundamentally. They preach unity but advise ruthless autonomy and self gratification.

The guidance that arises from within us, when received clearly without being edited by a defensive ego that fears annihilation, is vastly different. It invites us to reunite, heal and claim responsibility for every aspect of our existence. It reveals to us that unity isn’t a cosy, new age concept to snuggle up with when the outer world of form and the inner labyrinthine world of our fractured minds becomes overwhelming. It reveals that unity is a living code. It directs us to command ourselves as a sentient cell of awareness within this dynamic code. It is a grand and humble role we have tasked ourselves with. It will be painful, we will suffer, we will fear and we will trip and fall many, many times. But we are talking about the evolution of a species here. How could it require anything other than monumental effort, focus and strength?

It isn’t all struggle and darkness though. Of course not! It is our perception that dictates how we engage with the shifts that we seek to bring about, FIRST internally and THEN externally. It’s about an ordering, a prioritising of how we affect change that defines our journey and to some extent dictates how smooth or bumpy the ride.

Manifesting heaven on earth

creative-manifestation1-e1412527341290Do you know why the world is the way it is? The wars? The vast inequalities between rich and poor? The degradation of the natural world? All of it? It’s because we are sustaining it. We are allowing it and we are creating it. We create it with every thought and emotion. Every fearful thought, every thought of lack, every thought of impotence.

We are all equally responsible for the outer world of form. We create it together. No one is to blame. Not really. We just haven’t learnt how to consciously create. And we haven’t learnt how to love ourselves deeply and unconditionally. We are creating the world we think we deserve.

There is a better world, a more beautiful world, a kinder world and in a sense, it already exists. Do you want to inhabit this world? You can be there in a heartbeat, we all can. We’ve just got to turn away from the sources of information that are set up to programme us negatively and turn inward to align ourselves with the most positive, loving and empowering programming in existence.

It really is that simple. Turn inward and step into your heart’s knowing. Turn inward and connect to a 24/7 rolling broadcast of abundance, joy, love, peace and unity. It’s streaming all the downloads, plugins and upgrades straight from Source. You don’t have to study, you don’t have to pay in blood, sweat and tears. It’s yours already. But you have to request it. You have to ask. And then you have to live every second of every day, believing with every fibre of your being that you have received. If you do this, it will manifest. Your piece of the cosmic jigsaw WILL manifest.

The secret is not to become distracted by the other pieces of the puzzle. This doesn’t mean we don’t care about other pieces (people). It means that we recognise that each one of us is a co-creator and the best way to support others is by showing them our pieces of the puzzle, our lives. We become living examples of love, joy and abundance. We set the frequency and we broadcast it with limitless love and generosity. That is how we not only change our world, but the entire world.

Deep Knowing

The things I know, the really important things, I didn’t learn from a book or inside of a classroom. Recalling facts isn’t knowing, it’s regurgitation. It’s not a direct experience event.

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Knowing, or deep knowing, is something completely different. It’s not the same as believing either. It’s something so certain, so absolutely unassailable, that no matter what anyone else does or says to persuade you that you are wrong, it has no effect. Because you KNOW. Knowing isn’t merely experienced in the mind; it is felt by our emotions and encoded within the cells and atoms of our physical body. So when we KNOW, that which we know is validated on multiple levels.

My first ‘knowing event’ took place when I was very young. I couldn’t have been older than 10 or 11. I can still remember with absolute clarity what it was. I was shown many lives in an instant – lives spanning hundreds of years all occurring in the ever present Now. I saw that time didn’t exist at all, that all those lives were unfolding in the Now. No one had ever discussed this as a concept with me. I hadn’t read any books that introduced me to the theory of no-time. I just knew.

And, although I wanted to share what I knew, I felt no desire to persuade others to agree. It was enough to share and leave it at that. I still feel that way today. I’ve become adept at recognising when a truth is arising from within me and it’s getting easier and easier to capture it without distortion. As a child I didn’t have a self-edit button, so however outrageous the truths I realised appeared to be, I shared them regardless of the opinion of others.

Then came a period of my life when I shut down and didn’t listen to the wisdom I could access from within. I shut down because I didn’t want to be mocked and judged crazy. I didn’t want to be different and also because my outer life was so chaotic and painful, my focus scattered. And over a period of time, these sacred visions and downloads tapered away.

In all likelihood, I was still receiving, but because I was generating so much ‘white noise’, it was camouflaged. And now, after a decade of deep healing, they are back. I hear, I see, I feel, I remember. And just like when I was a young kid, I’m sharing what I know. I’m sharing with no attachment to outcome. I’m sharing because this is part of my purpose. It’s why I came here.

The whole point of telling you my story is because it’s your story too. Not the details of course, we all have our own stories. But, the point is, I’m not special. This is something we can all do, if we choose it.

A cosmic database

We all have instant and immediate access to a vast energetic database. It’s located within us waiting to come forth. We can access it through meditation, daydreaming, painting, swimming or walking in nature. It doesn’t matter. We all access it when our minds are still.

You’ll know when you are hooked up. You’ll feel intensely alive, vibrant, buzzing!!! There’s no right or wrong way to experience it. You won’t be afraid. Quite the reverse, it will all feel deeply familiar, like a long forgotten and treasured memory. Because, in a sense, that’s exactly what you are doing. You are re-membering all the fractured and scattered aspects of You. You’re also remembering your true nature, your incredible potentiality and your innate abilities.

More and more of us are waking up from the dream of separation. Scientists tell us that most of our DNA is ‘junk’. Junk just means they haven’t figured it out yet and because the field of science is dominated by the ego, it sits more comfortably with them. Our junk DNA is far from junk, it’s the treasure we’ve been hiding from ourselves all along.

We are here, experiencing in physical form, a tipping point in the evolution of the human species. We are here to activate our dormant DNA and step into our true identity. Thousands and thousands of us are receiving this deep knowing through encoded downloads of light. Pretty soon, the light of our knowing will blaze a trail through human awareness, awakening and reuniting all aspects back into Oneness.

Ditch the Diet

yoga womanIt’s diet season again. Every year millions of people put themselves through gruelling physical deprivation, emotional guilt tripping and subject their bodies to diet pills and sugar free food loaded with toxic artificial sweeteners. Every year they tell themselves “this will be the year that I succeed”, but they never do.

So many people are trapped into this cyclical habit of abuse, self-loathing and delusional thinking. It’s a racket, a scam designed to sell product and to keep people distracted and to goad them into self-hate. It’s a massive global energy drain which raises huge amounts of negative energy.

Diets never work because they’re unsustainable and they don’t tackle the problem at its root. People eat crap and get fat, not because they don’t understand nutrition, but because they don’t love themselves and their bodies. They overeat or eat harmful foods as an act of self-medication to assuage boredom, loneliness, fear, emptiness, etc.

It makes me so sad and angry that people are manipulated in this way. Instead of going on the latest fad diet that punishes and deprives, it would be far more effective to instigate positive changes that reward and nurture.

Meditation, positive affirmations, a physical activity that brings joy (yoga, dance, hiking, cycling, etc.), a new hobby or any other form of positive change that raises the vibration works. Weight often falls away when we are happy, engaged and stimulated. New interests stimulate confidence and nudge us towards more self-loving behaviours.

Faulty eating is a habit or addiction and like any other addiction, it is fed by a deep sense of disconnection from our true authentic self. Reconnecting with the real you brings purpose to life. Cultivating happiness and confidence prompts us to express loving kindness towards ourselves. When we begin to value ourselves as the magnificent creatures that we are, our inner wisdom and intuition guides us to eat the foods that are most beneficial for us.

Do yourself a favour this January, ditch the diet and fall in love with yourself. Fall in love with every excess pound and every roll of fat. Accept it all without judgement. Instead of focusing on how to reduce yourself physically, explore how you can expand yourself emotionally and spiritually.



Freedom. It’s not for everyone. Everyone says they want to be free because they imagine freedom is a state devoid of responsibility, when in actual fact, freedom requires us to be profoundly responsible. Not everyone can handle that. It means every thought, word and deed has to be impeccable. This doesn’t mean impeccable in outcome, but in intent.freedom

It doesn’t mean we can’t make mistakes or errors of judgement, because undoubtedly we will. This is because freedom is so vast in every sense, that the capacity to err is increased. It’s easy to be avoid mistakes when our range is narrow, but when it’s wide open the reverse is true.

Freedom is our natural state when we have learnt how to act in spite of fear. There are many obstacles that shackle us to self-enslavement. In a way, the shackles protect us from our power until we have the capacity to use it wisely. In this way, fear can be seen as a guardian at the door. Love is on the other side of the door, but very few understand that the key that opens the door isn’t an end to fear, but to develop a relationship with fear; a mutual respect for fear. This is because fear teaches us just as much as love and in a world of polarity we can’t have one without the other.


When wrong is always right, no matter what

Getting things wrong – ideas, beliefs, choices, people, jobs, decisions – it’s all GOOD. Because when we get things wrong, a window of opportunity opens. It creates a space of learning. We get to evaluate why what we chose wasn’t right for us. And then we GROW.

getting it right

There have been many, many times in my life when I was certain that I’d got pretty much everything right. I evaluated, reasoned and felt into each circumstance, and then I concluded that I’d got it right. Sometimes, being wrong can be the right choice. It allows us an opportunity to follow a given trajectory that starts with a decision and is played out to a conclusion.

That’s why we are here – NOT to be perfect, but to learn and grow through taking chances and experimenting in this world of form. Our greatest strength and most valuable tool is our imperfection, which is pretty much the opposite of what we have been taught.

Even when we are filled with doubt and self-loathing and our lives are falling apart , many of us still dig deep and summon up the energy to present a facade of perfection. I find that notion incredibly touching. It fills me with such love and tenderness for us all. It’s misguided, but it demonstrates the innate goodness that’s at the core of us all. We WANT to do well. We WANT to be the best we can be, but really we’ve got it all backwards.

We are already, in essence, the BEST we can be. We are ALREADY perfected. We are here to realise that and FEEL what that experience is like when lived through the human experience of imperfection. It sounds like a contradiction. It’s a paradox really as all fundamental truths are in their nature.

If we can summon up the courage to live authentically and honestly with our imperfections, whilst still remaining connected to our perfect nature, we will fulfil our purpose, the reason why we came here. For each of us, this will be different, because we are all both unique in our expression but the same at our core.

Some lives will appear to be like a car crash when viewed by others, but depending on how consciously we have lived, the very lives that look, to an outsider, disastrous, could very well be the outward signs of a life well lived from a spiritual perspective. Conversely, lives that seem accomplished and successful could quite easily be viewed as unfulfilled and less than successful in terms of spiritual fulfilment.

As we move through the years of our life, the aim I feel, is not to cease from making mistakes and errors of judgement, but to make subtler and subtler ‘mis-takes’ so that the very essence of our being can more easily permeate our physical presence. By that I mean, the more we learn from our past, the greater our capacity to fine tune the human experience. We leave behind the density of crude emotional energy – anger, jealousy, greed, etc. – and create a lighter environment for love, joy, peace and bliss to anchor into the physical.

The Mask

mask-150x150[1]When I look at actresses from the USA and also, more increasingly, the younger UK actresses coming through, I see the same flawlessly beautiful face on all of them. It’s not actually a face, it’s a mask they all wear.

Of course, they don’t all look exactly the same in detail, but they all wear the same mask. The mask they wear looks too perfect, too engineered and way too careful. It’s been engineered as a template. And the basis of the template is fear and control.

It emits information at a vibratory level. And the message it relays is dark indeed. It tells us that the highest ideal a woman can reach is physical perfection. It tells us that if you look beautiful the world will open up before you. It tells us that physical beauty is synonymous with wealth, adoration and success. This information is transmitted under your radar, so that you’re not even aware that you are receiving. It takes great presence to become aware and reject the message and its inherent programming.

It sends out a message to all the billions of women worldwide that we are not enough. It tells us that we need to devote ourselves to outer beauty in order to be happy, fulfilled and LOVED. It tells us that beautiful women are life’s winners. And most of all it tells us to conform, to fit in to the template as best we can.

European actresses aren’t quite so flawless, yet many of them are far more authentically beautiful, such as Juliette Binoche.That’s because we can see their inner essence etched on their faces. We can see their pain and their joy. We get glimpses of their suffering and their vulnerability. We can relate to them as real women. Many of the UK’s older actresses exhibit this authentic beauty too – Judy Dench and Helen Mirren, to name just two.

Of course, there are wonderful exceptions to the new UK and USA template. Women such as Meryl Streep, have refused to play ball and they stand as beacons of their craft and examples of what authentic femininity looks like. Women like Streep are empowering role models. But, our cinemas and TVs are flooded by images of women that do NOT empower.

No longer the preserve of Hollywood, this idealised version of womanhood is now firmly established in the corporate world too. And it’s all down to programming. Women, and increasingly men, are being programmed to care more deeply about how they look rather than who they are.

This obsession with the outer form is spreading like a virus, a psychotic epidemic of global proportions. And while the world takes selfie after endless selfie to upload for adoration (and ridicule), while humanity stresses over every line and wrinkle, every grey hair and extra pound of weight, the world becomes a little harder, a little crueler, a little less diversified and it becomes more regulated. And it’s been regulated and constricted by US. Because we are allowing it, and through judgement, policing it. We don’t care about the BIG stuff anymore. We are exhausted and consumed by SMALL concerns that don’t matter a jot.

We need to get over ourselves. Women and men need to grow up and stop being little princes and princesses. We aren’t the fairest in the land. Most of us aren’t movie-star-beautiful and never will be. And that’s okay. There are higher ideals to aspire to. Don’t allow yourself to be distracted. It’s all smoke and mirrors. Be your beautiful unique self. And let the rest of it go.